So. As someone whos had his battles with depression on and off a practice i started to do was to just be positive about things and set minor goals that eventually lead off to major goals. I was working my ass off and treading water, i was in so much credit card and medical debt, i ended a relationship that just shattered me alot of points it was just me and my thought thinking if i jump it all goes away in a instant. But obviously thats not the solution to anything. I did little things to make myself feel good, started up a hobby, occasionally hit the gym, forced my self to be social even when i didn't because once i got out my mind wasn't focused on the bad and eventually things just flowed, i was able to get a new job that didn't feel soul crushing and just put my whole heart into it made it to the other side eventually. And since the pandemic shit changed, i lost my job prepandemic and had to move back home so some days i feel there a battle in my brain but i just keep telling myself its temporary cause i know it is. There are days where i lose and don't leave bed for any prolonged period of time and there are days where i feel like i can go toe to toe with goliath. I don't know. This is what helped me and it took a few years for me to get there but it eventually came. Im not perfect or fully over it but im also not having thoughts of ending it all the way i use to. Also came to find that opening up about this to anyone who would listen took a weight off my shoulders even though admitting certain things is a very scary thing but i did it and felt better when i realized that hey man im not alot and alot of people fight their own version of depression.
You may not see it now but everyone has something to offer in this world. It may not be right now but one little moment can change everything.